'Cause I had a bad day :|

Tell me how to get rid of my life, would you? Please? I'm sick of my everyday life. I wanted to be listen to but I guess they didn't even recognize that. This isn't about love or something. Its my family again :| I'm tired of them :( I'm tired of them approaching me for stupid reasons. I think if I would be a deaf then I could understand it better. Well, unluckily, I'm not. Woo, looks like I'm turning emoo :| Yuck. Honestly, I'm not one of those people who would kill themselves just for what, let's say, love? Or whatever it is. Hmm. I just want to get rid of this. I mean, 2008 is about to end and I want to start my 2009, happy. But they're giving me a reason to frown all-year-long. And I hate it. I know I'm malabo. But I do really need someone to understand me. Even my Mom doesn't understand me and I don't even have an idea if she could see or feel what I'm feeling right now. I don't know if this is just a mood swing or something. I mean, my problem is just that I really need someone to listen to me. Whenever I share something or talk to them, they would just tell me that I'm wrong so I'd better shut up or worse, they would pretend they din't hear something :( OUCH :( I know I'm the youngest in this family, but I do still think and have feelings. Whenever I want to start a family talk, they would all just turn it into a business talk. I know, I don't know anything about business but I think I could understand their problem so why not suggest, right? I just don't know why they're rejecting my suggestions. I'm trying to suggest the best suggestion that I could suggest. And I'm trying to be a nice member of my family. But, suddenly, they don't even recognize that. They would always say I'm maldita, hard-headed or spoiled bratt whenever I feel bad about something that I begin to tantraum. I can't see any more reasons to give patience on this family. From now on, I would be maldita na. Maybe, on that as my side, they would understand :(

Lazy me :>

I dunno why. But, I'm feeling all lazy all day. And it sucks a bit but I do also appreciate it :)) Haha. Well, you know what? I'm getting fatter :| And that, I hate. Boohoo :( Tell me how to control this gluttony :(( Haha. K. Too much of the drama. Haha. Well, I really wanted to loose weight. But whatever I do: lessen my rice intake, eat rice once-a-day, avoid sweets, do sports; it still doesn't work! So I thought its just a waste of time. Haha. But one thing I figured out of myself is that I get fat easily. If I would eat 2 cups of rice, surely, my weight will increase a lot. I really don't get it. But I think it has something to do with my metabolism. Its too lazy too. If I really want to loose weight, then I would have to stop eating all day just to get my desired weight :)) But that's a craaze!:)) Haha. I can't survive 8 hours without eating any. See how much of a glutton I am?:)) haha. But see, if you have nice suggestions, please do. I would really love to hear from you. And and, you know what? I even tried herbal medicines(which my parents doesn't know about this :)) so better keep mouth shut :))). But it just made me wanna eat more :)) Haha. I lose weight during our Dance Production and all the weight that I lose had double this time. I even don't know if my school uniform still fits on me. I kept on saying to myself that "I would not eat tomorrow nor the next day." But when I woke up, first thing that I would do is to eat. DAMN IT. Fix me, would you?:)) Haha.

Maybe, this is the Escence of Christmas :">

Belated Merry Christmas everyone!:) Waaw. Time flies so fast! See, this week's gonna be the last week of 2008. Aww :( Its time for a new beginning!:) Say goodbye to 2008 and hello, 2009!\:D/ Hmm. This year's Christmas was great and surprising too. Who wouldn't be surprise to receive a gift from someone that is so dear to you?:)) Haha. This doesn't mean of lovelife :& :)) Haha. Its my Dad. See, our family had gone through many challenges and certain and complicated situations this year. My Dad kept his pride so high that sometimes he forgets about us. So, because of that, I hated him and I started to act like his age and say negative stuffs about him face-to-face.

By November, he went to our province at Batangas and stayed there for the whole month up to the first 2 weeks of December. He received no calls or text messages from us asking how he was. We acted like nothing's wrong. Since the time our business closed-up, Dad never did buy expensive stuffs and buy only things he really needed. Before, he could buy everything for us at anytime at any price. We could ask for large amount of money for nothing. We had drivers wherever we go. We ate at any restaurants and we all have branded and new clothes each time. Every year, we had new cellular phones and stuffs. Whatever we liked, we get them easily before. Its so much different now. See how time passes so fast? So, at Christmas' week, he came home. I was surprised at that day he got home. I don't know how to act. I was sleeping at their room at that time so he sat by my side. When I woke up, he smiled at me but the first thing I said to him was "Si Mommy? Ba't ka nandito?" Aww. Mean me :| Haha. Well, he didn't answer my second question. So I went out of the room and went to the kitchen for breakfast.

On Christmas Day, we had no Noche Buena because my Mom preferred to have Noche Buena on New Year. Haha. Weirdoo. So I waited for Christmas. When 12mid-night came, I shouted "Merry Christmas!" :)) Haha. Because of that, my Mom and Ate woke-up :)) Since my Dad slept on my brother's room and the 3 of us, on my parent's room, I greeted them first. We 3 got out of bed and checked if anyone was still awake. My Dad then came out of my brother's room. No one greeted him and we acted like we are the only ones there. Dad got his car keys and went out of the house. We all thought he would just go out to meet his High School classmates because he had he keys. But we were very wrong. We went to his car to get our gifts. This is the very first Christmas that he gave gifts to us :) Since he thought we were mad at him, he just placed our gifts on the sala's couch. No one noticed the gifts except for Ate. When Ate saw the gifts, she went to me crying and told me that. I was laughing at her because she's iyakin :)) Haha. But when I saw the gifts, I was surprised! I wanted to cry but I can't :)) By that time, I was still laughing at my Sister :)) Haha. But, of the 3 of us, I was the first one to approach my dad and greeted him a Merry Christmas. I hugged him and talked to him. Well, I cried too :)) I cried because its the first Christmas he gave gifts to us. That time, I experienced how my Dad is when he is selfless. Its feels so good!:) From that time on, my family never had frowns 'til today :)

There, I find this Christmas sweet because of that. I apologize if you think my reason's lame and boring :)) But see, try to put yourself on my situation. Then maybe, you would understand :) Merry Christmas again and have a blissful New Year!

T-I-R-E-D.

Last Friday, our class had our Christmas Party at Speaker Perez. Its a swimming parteeey!\:D/ Well, not all of us attended, but, atleast half of it:> I HAD FUN :D SO MUCH FUN :D You know why? Cause I LOVE THEM. I can't imagine how my life would be without them. And sad to say, this is our last year together :( Imma miss them SO MUCH. Its like you've taken half of my life without them, right by my side:( Hmm. There, right after the party, we went to Paskuhan at UST. We stayed there for like 30 minutes or an hour only. The people there was a blaaast!:O Grabe, I never thought UST could be filled with thousands of people :O Hmm. Anyway, UST really did prepared for it. The lights were great and the food was awesome :> K. The next day, my Sister invited me to go with her to triNoma. Ghaad. We went there like, 10 in the morning? So lesser shoppers was there than I expected. Great. We had our lunch at Sbarro and we went home at 5pm. Tiring isn't it? Haha. When we got home, the first thing I did was I went to my cousin's house. They have a new daaawg! Its so cute! Like me. AY!:)) Haha. Its half puddle and a half 'i really don't know'. Haha. Then, I got home at 9pm. When I got home, our office had its Christmas Party at our house. GREAT, isn't it. Very very relaxing :)) Haha. So I slept at around 12? Hmm. The next day, my Ninang and my cousins asked me to go with them to triNoma again :| Well, I can't refuse, my Ninang's gonna make libre e :)) Haha. We went there at 11am and got home at 4pm. I was so tired when we got home. I thought she'll just gonna libre us :| She bought gifts pa pala for her other inaanak :| Uuuhh, its so very tiring :| Hmm. Anyway, when we got home, I rested and slept for an hour. The next day, we went to Cubao for derma :| Damn it :| I'm so tireeed! I was with my Kuya and Ate. My mom had plans for our general check up that day. Since my sister could sense that I really need to rest, she called my Mom if we can have our general check up on some other day :)) haha. Yes!\:D/ So, we ate lunch at Tokyo Tokyo :> And had ice cream on diary queen!:D Haha. Yuum!:D Then, we went home. When we got home, finally, I RESTED AND SLEPT for a long time! Whew!:)) Haha. The next day, I thought that's the scheduled date for our general check up. But great, its not \:D/ Haha. Another rest day! Haha. That day was also scheduled for Angela's house. And her house is a 2 minute driving from our house. See how near it is?:| But my Mom didn't allow me to. Pfft.

Hmm. Its almost Christmas! Haa! Finally, I could open my gifts \:D/ Haha. Before anyone else would greet you, let me do it first "MERRY CHRISTMAS!\:D/"

Take care!

All I want for Christmas is YOU :)

Heey. Long time no post :)) Haha. I was busy this past few weeks or rather, I was bored and doing nothing this past few weeks. Anyway, you know what? We didn't pass the audition for Bandfest. Yeah, that's right. Everything we worked hard for was gone just like that. We started practicing summer of this year and then POOP! Hmm. I'm blaming no one except for my self. I expected a bit but from the very start I knew we we're not at focused at all. I mean, I'm the leader and I knew that, but still I didn't do anything about that. Hmm. But on the bright side, maybe this is God's way of telling us to take a rest and put everything down. He wanted me to spend more time with my friends. And to make up for the times that I should be with them. Anyway, I'm enjoying the present happenings around me right now. I'm happy for what I have right now. The only thing I wanted for and that would make up my whole 2009, is his HEART :>

Take Care!:)